I was rereading about a dream I had posted wine time ago about the girl of my dreams crushing all hopes of happiness I ever hoped to have. In this post I revealed that I had been smoke free for 9 days. I am proud to announce that it has now been almost 4 months. Honestly, I don’t even miss it. The previous times I stopped it was very difficult. After seeing my dad go through a heart attack worried me. Then I saw him give in to his cravings and start all that again even after the excruciating pain and it scared me. At 37 (I think, or 38) I can’t imagine my life without my Dad. I don’t want to leave my kids (10 & 18) without a parent. I’ve seen how it can mess a kid up and I don’t want to be the cause for all that pain.
Ultimately, it’s your life to live as you see fit but honestly, I would love to have you around for many, many years to come. If nothing else, do your best. That’s all anyone can ask of you.