Poor puppy

Our dog has been having issues with his ears for about a week and we noticed that his ears were draining badly. His vet was able to get him in today. Double bacterial ear infection. He needed his shots also so we did that. Nurse took him to get his ears cleaned and after paying almost $400 and getting home home I realized they cut his nails without even asking us and charged $12. I know it’s only $12 but they never even asked! Add the flea drops, pills, ear drops, special shampoo for his sensitive skin, and two shots I’m not going to complain about the total price because I know we got off cheap. Does that make sense?

Hope you made today a great day…if it wasn’t, just remember that tomorrow is a new day.




I would like to apologize for not writing in a while.

I finished up the semester and had to drop out which upset me but I needed the break. Been dealing with drama with my oldest daughter’s roommate and the kids at my youngest daughter’s school bullying her. I’m sick and tired of all the hate in the world and that my children are having to deal with it. One of those things I’d like to protect them from but know I cannot.

Been working although not as much as I would like but I understand the reasons. Between the little one having seizures I’ve had to miss work. She can’t be left alone and I can’t find a sitter for a child her age so my availability is not great.

These aren’t excuses by any means. I just wanted to let you know the reasons I’ve been away for so long.

Go out and make it a great day everyone!


Totally forgot

Yesterday after lil bit comes home from school she tells me that it was picture day at school. I had it in my calendar to remind me and yet I still forgot! It’s not like she was wearing dirty ratty clothes or something but the fact that I forgot angers me. I wish I could remember things like I used to. I’m not quite 40 and already my memory is failing me.

It’s the beginning of a new day so I’m determined to make the best of it. I am going to go out and make it a great day!


Happy Valentines Day

I do not have much to share today but I wanted to take a moment to say happy Valentine’s Day to all you wonderful people. I hope that today was a wonderful and magical day for you.

I don’t have a valentine this year (same as the last 6 years) but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t special. My oldest got me a heart filled with Kit Kats which I absolutely adore and the little one gave me extra snuggles which I adore as well. I got to work today which was nice.

It is my hope that tomorrow is just as wonderful. I plan to make it a great day, do you?


New truck?

I found a used (new to me) Dodge Durango that is cheap but has high mileage. Dealer says nothing is wrong with it but with that type of mileage I’m not sure I want to have another fixer-upper. Not only that, I still owe more than what my car is worth and adding that onto a loan for the Durango, I am not confident that I can afford it. I want a new car but don’t necessarily need a new car. It took me many years and a lot of growing up to learn the difference between need and want and even at almost 40 I am still learning. So, no new truck for me. Kind of depressed about it to be completely honest. I love the feeling of a new vehicle. All of the new smells (even if it is used), new dials and knobs to play around with, the feeling that I accomplished something by getting it. But alas, it was not meant to be. That’s okay though. It gives me the chance to build my credit more and to pay off some of the loan on my Mustang. Hopefully, this time next year I will be in a better position and there will be a better truck for me to purchase. Until then, I am content with how things played out. The heated seats, adjustable pedals, and all the other amenities would have been appreciated though.

As always my little sweet ‘ums, go out and make it a great day!


My First Liebster Award

The Stories In Between was kind enough to nominate me for my first Liebster Award and for that, I thank them. I’m sure a few may be asking what this award is, I must admit that I was one of those people. This is an award that bloggers nominate other bloggers for when they want to show respect to their work as well as the dedication that the blogger has put forth in creating their work. It’s a way that we, as bloggers, can show our appreciation and recognition for all the bloggers out there that are living life with all its complexities as well as taking time out of their day to write down thoughts, feelings, ideas, and concerns in an effort to help those out there that may be looking for a ray of sunshine in a dark and dreary world.

10 questions that were asked of me (these were the wrong questions but I have permission from Ailanthus Altissima (misstree.life) to reblog these questions. please see https://wordpress.com/view/iamaman2015.wordpress.com for the correct questions and answers):

  1. What is your favorite color and what does it mean to you?

My favorite color is burple. While that doesn’t make a lot of sense, I will explain a bit. It is blue and purple mixed together to make the most beautiful shade on the planet (at least to me).

What prompted you to start blogging and/or writing?

I have written for as long as I can remember. Started many books but only finished one, a children’s book, that I wrote for my oldest when she was around 2. With all our moving through the years I have since lost it. This saddens me to no end. That said, the main reason I started this blog was because: A) people were starting to tell me that I wrote too much on Facebook B) I was unable to find anyone my age (currently almost 40) that were transitioning and wanted to throw myself out there for others that may be, or have gone through, some of the things I am as a transparent.

What was the most significant journey you’ve been through?

While parenting and transitioning are never ending, I would have to say that those two are the most significant. Being a single parent is extremely difficult but worth every moment. Transitioning is also very difficult but rewarding as well.

Who or what is your greatest adversary?

Simply put, myself. I am my hardest critic. I expect too much from myself yet get angry with myself for not achieving my goals.

If you could conceptualize yourself as anything other than a human being, what would you be?

At first I was going to say dolphin but they are expected to be all fun and nice and stuff. Then I thought, I’d rather be a house cat. When they are temperamental they can get away with acting like jerks, they decide who is allowed to touch them and when, they get a warm/cool place to sleep (constantly) and food in their tummies. They don’t have to answer to anyone and it is acceptable. Plus, they can be warm and caring creatures.

How would you describe your safe space? If you don’t have one, what do you imagine it might be like?

I have schizophrenia, and in my mind, with the paranoid aspects of my disease), there is no safe place. However, with that being said, I think the safest I feel would be my home.

What is your favorite website?

Honestly, it depends on my mood. My top websites are:








(Note: these are not in any particular order)

What type of media resonates most with you?

No one type of media as there are many. I think it depends on what I am wanting to know or learn about.

Do you have any background/education/experience you feel benefits your blog?

I think that being a single transgender parents helps me to write about those topics. Having had may writing classes throughout my college career assists me to write about these topics in a way that makes sense to my readers (I will ask that if you ever have any questions to please ask them…the only “dumb” quesiton is the one not asked, it’s how we learn).

On a scale of 1 (lowest) to 10 (highest) how would you rate your ability to empathize?

I would have to say an 8. Some things I sympathize with as I cannot fully empathize with all situations.

Thank you again for the nomination. Have a safe and wonderful rest of your day!


Curb meets bumper

Last night Lil Bit had a birthday party to go to so the oldest tags along in her car. We drop off Lil Bit and get into oldest child’s car. As she’s pulling away the curb apparently likes the bumper so much that it tries to keep it. Driving down the road she keeps hearing something. With me being born half deaf I don’t hear it. We pull over and I get out to look at the damage. The corner of the bumper is pulled away from the body of the car. We try to pop it back in but with no success. After the party I have her take her car back to my house and get under the car as much as possible. It’s a low lying car and I’m a big man so I’m sure it would’ve been humorous to watch. I was able to zip tie the bumper to the frame a little using little holes that weren’t being used. It’s not a permanent fix by any means but it’ll work until she can get it repaired. We’re going to my parents house later to see if my dad can do anything. Until then, homework, ugh! 😆

Go out and make it a great day everyone!