Exciting News

I got hired on as seasonal with the chance to prove myself and get hired on full time. I have to sign up for benefits although I’m not sure how to do that. I got on the website and it is confusing. I read through the benefits materials and SRS surgeries are covered! I am so incredibly excited! The plan pricing is really reasonable also. The last time I had medical through a job I was paying almost $500 a month for family and this is much lower with the same co-pays but more benefits! I really hope that I can get hired on full time. The pay, hours, and benefits are amazing.

Found out the other day that the owner of my other job (the one I’ve had for 6 years) bought another store and picked a store manager…surprise, it isn’t me. His reasoning, I can’t work nights or weekends. I think that is a lame excuse because my old store manager who is now his regional manager, wasn’t able to do nights or weekends either when he gave her the job. Honestly, I don’t care anymore. My store has had 5 or 6 store manager’s since I got hired on so obviously something isn’t right with how they are treated. The last manager as well as the current one have confided in me all the pressure put on them by the owner and staff and they don’t make much more than what I am. It isn’t worth it. As employees we are not valued for what we do. We have to repeatedly beg for raises. Night shift expects all our work to be done yet they don’t do half of what they are suppose to be doing and leave it all for the 1 person that opens in the morning to do on top of all the things they have to get done. It’s a never ending vicious cycle and I am tired of it. I like what I do but it is just too much. The turn-around rate is so high that I don’t even bother to remember anyone’s name until they have been there at least 3 months. Of all the people that were there when I started, I am the only one left. Sad really. That is why I am so excited for this new job. I am not going to leave my current job unless I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I will be hired on full time. I don’t want to be stuck in limbo if the new job doesn’t pan out. But, considering the owner re-hires people that steal, lie, do drugs while on the clock, and stand around not doing anything other than hit on customers and be on their phones…I have no doubt that as a hard worker I would get re-hired if I asked to come back. I don’t really want to beg for my job back though. Don’t get me wrong, if it means providing for my family I will.

Hope you all made it a great day!



Job interview

So I’m waiting to go in to a job interview. I really want this job. It’s a great company to work for and they treat their people well. I’m not leaving my part time job if I do get it. I am determined to make a better life for my kids and I. I’m tired of living paycheck to paycheck and being of government assistance. I used to have a great job that offered benefits like this one but my department was closed down. That was a real bummer. I think I’d like this one even better than that one, if that’s even possible.

Go out and make it a great day!



I would like to apologize for not writing in a while.

I finished up the semester and had to drop out which upset me but I needed the break. Been dealing with drama with my oldest daughter’s roommate and the kids at my youngest daughter’s school bullying her. I’m sick and tired of all the hate in the world and that my children are having to deal with it. One of those things I’d like to protect them from but know I cannot.

Been working although not as much as I would like but I understand the reasons. Between the little one having seizures I’ve had to miss work. She can’t be left alone and I can’t find a sitter for a child her age so my availability is not great.

These aren’t excuses by any means. I just wanted to let you know the reasons I’ve been away for so long.

Go out and make it a great day everyone!



So, I was rocking work this morning. Had everything done except tomatoes, cookies, and bread although bread was almost finished. Went to cut the first tomato in the slicer and got my finger instead. I could not get the bleeding to stop so I called my manager as I was the only one there. He told me to put out the “Be right back” sign, that he was on his way and to just leave and go to the doctor. Luckily my location is inside of another business so I asked the employees if they could tell any customers that came in that someone would be right with them and they agreed. I cut my finger around 9:00 this morning and it just finally stopped bleeding (it’s now almost 10 am). After looking at it I don’t think it’s too deep but I’m afraid to manipulate it to investigate further because I don’t want it to start bleeding again. Great start to my Saturday. Ugh!

Through it all I’m still determined to make today a great day, are you?


Too early

It’s a little after 5 a.m. and I’m awake for God only knows. My sleep has been broken these last few weeks and when I do sleep I’ve been having bad dreams. One night I even had a nightmare. I don’t usually have bad dreams. Typically, I have maybe 2 bad dreams a year instead of my 1-2 times a week. It’s quite frustrating.

I actually have a day off work today so after my medication person leaves this morning I think I’ll take a nap. I love getting weekdays off because I can nap while little bit is in school.

I see we have a couple new subscribers. Welcome to iamaman2015. I sincerely hope you enjoy this blog and if at anytime you would like me to write about a certain subject don’t be afraid to speak up and ask. This goes for everyone.

Go out and make it a great day! Live today as if it were your last. Tell those that you love how you feel, watch that sunrise/sunset, eat that chocolate cake (unless you like my aunt and are allergic to chocolate, in this case eat a carrot cake or something). Remember that you are loved even if it doesn’t always feel like it.


Getting misgendered sucks

I work with the public. Yesterday I had several people call me ma’am and by the umpteenth time I looked at the guy in front of me and said, “What kind of cheese would you like ma’am?” He got real serious and a little upset and corrected me. So I countered with, “I’m sorry, I thought it must be opposite day since you called me ma’am”. He realized his mistake and apologized then said it was good that I had a sense of humor during times like that. I have a he/him pronoun button on the front of my work hat yet no one notices it. Tired of not passing. I’ve been on testosterone for almost 2 years and I still sound like a 12 year old girl. I’m just not starting to get sporadic facial hair. Ugh! This really messes with my dysphoria and I have no clue how to overcome it. I see guys on facebook that have been on testosterone for 4 months that have deep voices and facial hair yet here I am still looking and sounding like a girl!

Hoping today is better. It is a new day filled with endless possibilities after all. So, I am going to go out and make it a great day, are you?



About to Quit!

Had it out with the owner of my store yesterday. We got paid on the 15th and somehow my check disappeared. I kept getting told by my manager that the owner would only take a couple of days. Yesterday the owner came in to do who knows what and I asked him if he had brought my check. He’s like, are you sure you didn’t pick it up? I said that I didn’t even come in the Friday that we got paid because I opened the next day so I was just going to get it then. Then he tells me that there is a $30 cancellation fee for the check before he can issue another one while looking at me expectantly. I asked if he expected me to pay it and he says, “Someone has to”. Ummm, no, you’re the owner, you’re the idiot that doesn’t have direct deposit, and it’s not my job! Then he asks if I can wait until this Friday when we get paid again. With as much attitude as I have (which is alot!)  I said, “Guess I’m going to have to, huh?!” and stormed away before I said or did something stupid. So help me, this job is not worth it! I don’t care that I don’t have another job lined up. If he keeps this s@#$ up, I am walking out on him. He doesn’t care about us as workers and thinks that we are replaceable no matter how long we’ve been here or how hard we work. I’m done.

Going to take some deep, calming breaths before I go in to work today and I am going to MAKE IT a great day regardless!